Tuesday, 28 February 2017

Finally an Update... Two Years Later

So two years ago, I updated my blog and fell off the face of the earth. I *think* I promised I would start posting more often...yeah that didn't go super well. Mea culpa, mea culpa, mea maxima culpa. I apologize to you all and this time I promise I'll try not to let this turn into yet another failed attempt at starting this blog... again. 

Let me catch you all up. I think I had left you just before Rosie's first birthday. My husband and I went through a rough time trying to conceive baby number two. I think that contributed to a lot of why I felt the need to check out and stop trying to maintain my blog. We dealt with 6 months of infertility and one miscarriage ( which I'll cover at a later date). Finally at the end of summer 2015 we conceived, and on May 4th 2016 we welcomed Lawrence Gabriel Brason into the world. He is now my chunky, happy, goofy, thriving almost 10 month old. Rosie is a little over 2.5 years old. She is - well how to describe Rosie - she is the smartest, most dramatic kid I know. Guys, she is so quick, and so funny but also so particular.  My husband and I have truly been blessed and our life feels very full - read busy. 

I'm totally biased but these kids are so cute!!!

We still live in the same 3 bedroom townhouse, which is getting quite full of kids stuff ( I think I'm supposed to say full of love but ugh... false positivism is just not me).  Boots is still around, and is still her same old crabby self. My husband is still self employed and I'm still a stay-at-home-mom. I feel like things are so different, and yet they are very much the same. Regardless, it's clear to me that I have grown quite a bit in the last 2 years. I don't know if it was losing a child or becoming a mom of two but I feel different, maybe wiser? I've learned not to worry so much about my kids, they will hit all the milestones regardless of if I fuss about it or not.  I feel so much more confident with myself as a wife and mother. I was skimming through my older posts and it just hit me how much I was seeking approval from the world. I just kind of own my choices now and although I don't like it, I accept that not everyone will approve of everything I do. 

I'm really hoping I can share some of this wisdom with you all. Not that I'm an expert but I think that I could bring some perspective to some of the fellow recovering people-pleasers out there. That's my hope for the posts that will *hopefully* follow. 

The kids will be out of the bath soon and my "me" time will soon have run out. I think I'll sign off now before I end up with one kid on my boob and another trying to touch the keyboard. (Do you all see why I've been M.I.A. for two years?) But here's to hoping I don't end up a big liar again and I actually update you all soon.